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About Abacus Adds

I'm a gamer girl. That's the best way to describe me. I used to rebel against labels, but this one doesn't constrict me, it welcomes me. I am all things nerdy. I have a hard time relating to people but drawing and writing help me express myself. I am going to try this blogging thing. No one I know will ever see this page. Hopefully, this will help me find my self. Feel free to contact me, I'm always happy to find others who accept me for who I am.

Slut?

When I look at my reflection I see it on the tip of my tongue. Am I a slut? I give myself away easily. It’s not my body I’m giving, it’s myself. I give my heart to men I think … Continue reading

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I’ll be stronger now than yesterday

I don’t love myself. I don’t even like myself most days. I have hated myself for as long as I can remember. I’ve relied on other people to tell me how wonderful I am when I’m dismayed. I’ve leaned so … Continue reading

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Daily Prompt: Earworm – Give me a reason

Daily Prompt: Earworm. / Just give me a reason I was finally ready to settle down. I thought we were fine, yeah we had everything. So why did you do that? Why would you sleep with her? Just give me a reason … Continue reading

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Nerd love

What did we do last night? Compared and swapped comic book collections –> played Tales of Symphonia (an old rpg for the Game Cube) –> watched Legend of Korra –> snuggled –> fell asleep.  What am I doing tonight? Laying … Continue reading

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I’ve got feels

I have a crush. ME! I don’t do this emotion thing.  He’s all I think about.  I’m constantly checking my phone hoping it’s him. My chest feels tight. My heart is pounding so hard it hurts. What is this? It’s scary…

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Where’s my inspiration?

I’ve lost my creative edge.I don’t remember how to think outside the box. Hoarding notebooks and filling them with stories about zombie out breaks and dragons and princesses, those days are all gone. Where did they go? When did I … Continue reading

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Normality is Relative

    Its all about fitting in right? My autistic older brother has a favorite saying “Normality is relative“, it’s meaning is simple, what’s normal to you may not be normal to someone else. I think it helped me more … Continue reading

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